
Never in my life have I had such a bad year. If there was a way that I could be hurt, I was.
2009 started with the loss of my job as the greens keeper and weekend fees collector at the golf course. The year had been rough of the course, so I was able to see it coming a very long time in advance. I had paid bills and was able to tuck some back. I spent all of January congratulating myself on being so clever. But loss of a job was already straining me. I do not care what I do, I just like to work.
February started with the death of my longtime companion and friend. George and I had been through so much over 14 years. He had been suffering from a few ruptured disks in his back, was in constant pain, and started to have periods of paralysis. I had to let him go. My heart still aches for him so badly. King George of the Jungle was my one eyed Pekingese. He was my old man. I love him still.
March started with Grandma's stokes that left her dependent on help for just about everything. I guess it was really okay that I had lost my job at this point. Two days after Grandma's strokes Aunt Charlene died after her 4 year battle with lung cancer. Her death was not easy nor kind. I walked away from that experience a non smoker. I now have her Town Car and tons of junk, but really do wish I could visit with her just one more time.
April was no kinder. Bubba, my 8 year old Brussels Griffon suffered a massive heart attack and died even before I could get him to the vet, at midnight by the way. Just torn away with no warning or chance to stop it. It was in April that I started to howl in pain. I just wish that was all there was to be for me.
June saw my Aunt Gail die of complications of diabetes. She did not have an easy time either. Her funeral was tough.
In October Grandma had some more strokes and lost most of her ability to speak. Her skills at simple tasks were slipping away as well. She fell and broke her hip. She spent a lot of time in the hospital and I think was just ready to go to God. We had her at a a so called rehabilitation facility that completely mismanaged her diabetes. She then had a couple of more strokes and lost the ability to swallow.
The week of Thanksgiving, we brought her home to die. Kendall and I were both with her. I still scream in my head every time I think of her. I miss her and hurt so bad for her. I want my Grandma back now.
The week before Christmas, Kendall adopted an dog named Dudley. Poor thing had not been treated well. After months of abuse and starvation, he developed parvo and died. Not my dog but I cried for days, and then lived with the 15 days that could see my remaining dog and Tessa develop it. They didn't.
This week, he went and adopted another abused dog that had been hit by a car and it's liver and kidney were in the space her lung should have been. Kendall was sure she was his and after surgery it actually looks like Lady may be the turning point. She gets to come home today and see in 2010 with us.
Please God, have mercy in 2010.